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A-Qing ⬤ The Untamed
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[ he will probably get her in something like this which is not hideous but it is very...bright. ]

I do not know what kind of life you lead, if it was full of unkindness like his but you are safe here. Even if I am not around, Zichen will look after you. [ and of course, her 'brother', but he feels that goes without saying. ]

I - [ there is hesitation. maybe fear of failure? ] I want to save him from his darkness. Whatever it is that is haunting him - I cannot fix his past or those memories. I can only offer him a better life here, a happier one and guide him to become a better person.

The person I am sure he is and would have been had karma been kinder. When I first met him I thought he was beyond redemption but he has shown that is no true because he wishes to change. Maybe I want to save him from... himself.

He does not have to be alone when he has us. When he has [ oh. ] me.

[ sorry a-qing. he has a lot of feelings about xue yang. ]

I apologise, this was - it's not - everything will be fine, eventually I am sure.

[For a long moment she says nothing, just sort of closing her eyes as she lets the words wash over her. It's bittersweet. She's happy for Xue Yang in a weird way, in the same way she's happy that Xiao Xingchen is happy with this--or finding happiness. Maybe he doesn't realize it himself just how deeply he's in love or how much their happiness is intertwined with his.

So why does her heart feel like it's breaking?]

No need to be sorry. I understand.

[It's that simple realization that she's always sort of known but didn't want to acknowledge. There's no way Xiao Xingchen would ever look at her as anything more than a little sister--not now, not ever. Xue Yang has won this war, and A-Qing can't do anything about that.]

Daozhang, you should make sure he knows these things too. He's stupid, so if you don't spell it out for him often enough, he won't get it.

Edited 2020-01-22 05:55 (UTC)

[ he loves a-qing as a sister, as family and would lay down his life for her. he does not know it, but she had saved him and song lan; a-qing had the bravery to set the wrongs of yi city right.

but what a-qing sees so clearly, xiao xingchen does not. he is in love and does not know it because the concept is too alien. he is blinded now, still. ]

You think he does not know? [ a flicker of surprise because to xiao xingchen nothing he is telling a-qing is secret. it's all so there, surely everyone else knows this? how he wishes to save xue yang? to stay by song lan's side? to protect a-qing? ]

So, between you and him, you're the clever one? [ he reaches over to pat her head. ]

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